one month

Just one month left in this year. I can't believe it is almost over. This has been one of the worst years. So much sadness and disappointments and worry. From my sister being homeless, to my dad passing away, my son and his wife splitting and then divorcing, a car accident, what else?? Just a sad hard year. Seems one thing after another has been happening. I told Johnny I was so afraid of what was going to happen next. I haven't been sleeping good worrying about it. But then I have my sweet Taigen who hugs my neck so hard and tells me "I love you mamaw"...that bring hope and light into my life. I don't know what my life would be without this sweet little blessing.

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try try again

I'm going to try to blog again. Maybe I'll make it this time by bloggin only good stuff. And good stuff happens to everyone everyday, you just have to weed it out. So. the good stuff for me today is I ate at Firehouse with 2 really good friends. Love chatting and talking with my buddies. I hope I keep in touch this good when I retire...which...that is always good stuf to talk about...I signed my Retirement papers and the official date is Feb 28, 2011. On March 1, 2011 I will not be employed any longer. I will be my own boss...well my boss will be my sweet grandson Taigen...speaking of which turned 3 a little over a month ago and man can you tell it. He has meltdowns every now and again and last night was one of them. He was so upset because first I gave him a little peppermint patty mint and he was trying to open it with his teeth and not doing very good at it and if you know me I am a teeth person and you just don't use your teeth for opening things...it hurst me to watch. So I took the patty mint and nicely opened it for him and boy oh boy was that a huge mistake...he was so upset...he kept saying he wasn't going to eat it and wanted another one and I told him that was the only one there was...so then he starts eating it but still fussing the whole time and bless his heart, not enjoying it at all...and then it starts melting and he is upset it is melting and wants another one that doesn't melt, then I was trying to get him to lick off the choc that is melting on and in between his fingers and he did get some of it off and then I get a wet paper towel to get the rest and whew...that is when the meltdown went into full swing...If you tried to reason or say anything to him he got even more upset...I finally told Johnny to just let him fuss and all we said was oh, well, and goodness and he just fussed it out with himself...then he wanted to watch Spiderman, and it was already 9:30 and no way would we put a 2 hour movie on at 9:30..so he fussed and fussed about that until he finally got a little interested in watching the 30 minute show and fell asleep and he looked so sweet and angelic sleeping with his sweet little eyes and mouth closed. God love him, he is our sweet little blessing sent from above and I don't know what our lives would be like without him. But I'll be glad when the meltdowns are over.

Seems like everything is just crazy right now...It just doesn't feel right. Is it in the air or what? I hope things become calm again and things slow down a little. It is scary to think about how fast time is going by. Less than 10 months I'll be retiring. I have worked some kind of job or another since I was 15. I have never been without a job. Working at UT for 30 years is just amazing to me. I look back and can't believe I have done this. During the time it seemed hard to go to work everyday...and some days harder than others. Lots of chances in my life, my family, work and work coworkers, bosses, etc. It has been a crazy ride. I'm glad it is about over. I can hardly wait to stay home and do things that are fun. I hope nothing changes that I don't get to keep Taigen. That would just break my heart if I don't get to keep him. I think we will have so much fun. I never got to stay home with my kids and I'm looking so forward to this. I hope I can build up some way to make money a little along the way so I don't have to do any kind of outside work. I might keep one more child, just as much for the money as for Taigen some company and someone to play with. I don't know yet. But I can hardly wait til Feburary 28, 2011. Whew..